Everything is possible if you apply yourself. Nothing is possible if you don’t.
And that can (and should) be read in several ways — to apply yourself as in to try hard, to make the honest attempt, AND to literally make an application, in this case for a job.
It’s been a long long time since I’ve done that. So long that to do so had become one of those things that seems impossible. I mean, my CV is so threadbare and embarrassing that my recourse is to try to see it as funny. Serious consideration of the situation is too painful. But I made it, I got a referee, and I submitted it. All things I should have done 15 years ago. It’s strange that it wasn’t even that hard. After all the build up I’d given it… a lesson I wish I could learn there.
So far it’s just been pushing buttons on a keyboard. Yes, that has ramifications in the real world, but I haven’t felt them yet. The next step — interviewing, face to face interaction, having to actually explain myself to strangers — is terrifying.
So fear is evidence of progress.