One week ago. A week later – a Thursday in town. CC the Argentine. We’ve had good texts -moved from Tinder to WhatsApp – but nothing long or intimate.
Was last week an aberration? A drunken fumble, meaningless, some kind of dissapative behaviour, not a special to her as it was to me, what?
The gallery.
I’m late but I don’t know it. She doesn’t even let me know it. A half an hour in the difference, my mistake. I feel stupid and struggle not to let it annoy me. I bungle the greeting – a clumsy face mash of a cheek kiss. “A great start…”
A coffee? A coffee.
She is in jeans today. A blue T. She looks less amazing than before – but how could she not. Her eyes are still smiling and her voice is still sexy as hell. She is curvaceous and buxom. I struggle not to get caught looking. We talk a little bit about art. Dali and Bosch.
The Spanish Master of Light.
We have opinions and share them. A few more “exactly!”s. She knows her stuff, and I know enough to make her think the same of me.
On to the permanent collection. We’re having fun now – critics that we are.
At some point, somehow, she drops into conversation the possibility of going to hers… tonight? Seriously? We are agreed that we won’t do what we did last time – that was too late, too drunken. I don’t quite take her seriously.
Tacos are the plan… we wander across town. Chats are good and free flowing.
But the taco place is booked solid – a hour wait. No way.
We pop across the road for sushi. She orders a bottle of white, we share two big platters, she doesn’t like kim-chi.
I can’t remember what we talked about…
…but we are heading back to hers.
A bus to B’aalsbridge. A short walk, now in the dark, a little tipsy, but it’s not late.
In her one bedroom flat – most of her possessions are boxed or in suitcases – we have a coffee and make slightly awkward conversation. She is waiting for me to make the move… I’m too afraid, and pretend to be too much of a gentleman. But we kiss. She asks when I was last tested.
We move to the bedroom. She takes off her clothes. I do the same.
We fuck, all night, in most of the way. I eat her pussy, hairless and tight tight tight. She sucks my dick, and she does it well. I flip her over and fuck her deep while rubbing her clit. “Her new favourite thing”. I do the same with my thumb deep in her ass.
She comes, hard, two or three times and again in the morning.
I don’t.
It’s embarrassing, but maybe not an issue yet.
My insensitivity, with all of its links to porn-addiction, onanism, and anti-depressant use haunts me. How much did it hurt my relationship with G? A woman wants to satisfy, and no one is comfortable being the only one having fun, no matter my reassurances.
But we use all the condoms, and eventually after a late morning are forced to go out and get more. We get breakfast too – Rolies…
We are close to enemy territory here. Haunted houses.
But the full oirish is needed, and slowly dispatched as we chat. The double-bagged condoms are on the table beside me. We are not done.
So we head back to hers again. Undress, fuck, chat, and cuddle. We stroke each others skin and the sensual pleasure of it is amazing.
All of this feels unreal.
I learn so much about her… and the asymmetry is growing and becoming harder to ignore. I try to tell her some (highly edited) highlights… it’s uncomfortable. The tone is relationshippy… pleasantly so. But so quick? So real? So soon?
Eventually, at about 4 or 5 pm I manage to leave. All fucked out.
I have to go to the wesht to meet my gbf and his beau. She has to get on with moving and then go to a work thing.
Maybe that is for the best. It creates the illusion that I have a life. And maybe I do.
I go to get the same bus I used to get from G’s. From the same fucking stop… reality is merciless. But I have to run to catch it, and the danger of crossing paths is minimised. I sit there, sweaty, smelly, sore and tired, in yesterday’s clothes, feeling amazed at the world.
Could she be the one?
We have plans. Next time: my place.